Most of us are fortunate enough in our lives to have people that love us… no matter what we do.
But, what about you?
Do you love you?
I thought I loved me.
I thought I treated myself with compassion… until I met with my coach the other day.
She pointed out the mean things I was saying about myself…
the eye rolls when talking about how I messed up…
the negative language I used to talk about myself.
Y’all, I am not very nice to me.
It took my coach to point it out to me so that I could see it, too.
Understand that I do not like sharing this with you.
I’m way too vulnerable at this moment.
But, if you can be helped by my discovery, I’m all in.
You see, I can love the hell out of you.
I accept that you have stuff to deal with.
I have compassion for you.
I flat out think you are amazing, valuable, and worthy of love.
So, why is it so hard for me to feel that way about me?
Maybe because I’ve been fighting with myself since I was about 14… never good enough.
It doesn’t really matter how I got here.
It is where I am.
…and, I just want to change it.
Now, about the how.
How do I learn to love myself?
With lots and lots of practice… and awareness.
***I have a feeling this might take a while.
But, every time I catch myself putting myself down for a decision, I will turn it around.
I will change that thought into a loving and accepting one.
The hardest part for me is the awareness.
I am totally willing to love me, but those negative thoughts are sneaky.
My brain is trained to think them.
I need to unlearn that behavior and retrain my brain with love and compassion.
So, here I go… with humility and compassion.
***Ha! I caught this one. It might not take long at all. This statement is just more of me thinking I’m not capable… My new thought: I will succeed no matter how long it takes.
There. That feels much better.